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Hope Deferred & a Dream Born…

Hope1There is a Proverb that says: Hope deferred makes the heart sick,  but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

I shared in my previous post that I was finally working and loving my new job. It felt right. It felt like home. It felt like a gift of God. But alas, it is over… The job ended on Friday. I was shocked and very hurt. There was really no explanation or reasoning, just an assurance that though I was great, they wanted to try other people. I smiled my way out of there, remained thankful and professional, but as soon as I got to my car I cried, and cried, the tears didn’t stop for two days. I went out with some friends and one of them noticed me from across the room and sent me a text saying “please don’t cry.” Sometimes I think people don’t want you to cry because it makes them uncomfortable. It makes them feel helpless. But crying is a good thing. It’s cleansing and sometimes it will give you clarity. At least it did for me…

The clarity I gained that even when you want something really bad, and it appears to be good for you, there is better. I haven’t gotten to the better yet, but I am believing it does exist. God is still in control and He has a purpose for everything. In this case, I am grateful to have made enough money to sustain me a little while longer. God is feeding me my daily bread, just as He promised.

I also realized that worlds view of success may not always be the best view, nor is it God’s view. Having a great career, beautiful home and wonderful spouse with a couple of children is usually what people consider to be success and I admit I do too at times. But if I use these attributes as a measuring stick for my life, then I would be considered a complete failure. Comparing yourself to others or what they have, is a recipe for unhappiness, and I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to be unhappy.

Right now my life is taking the course into the unknown and I don’t know where its leading, but I know that it will be good. I serve a God who blesses us with good and perfect gifts, so as I patiently await mine, I also pray that He molds me into a good and perfect gift. I want to be a good and perfect gift for my new job, for my business, for my future spouse, for my ministry. I want to not only be blessed, but also to be a blessing as well. This is the real definition of success…

As far as a dream realized, something amazing was been born out of all these recent challenges. Thanks to a talk with my Lift Strategist and amazing friend Jasmine Johnson, I decided to launch my new business. She reminded that I have a knack for detail and making special days, even more special. I combined that with my love for flower arranging, weddings and decorating, and voila! The Suite was born!

The Suite is an exclusive wedding night suite decorating service. I prepare and decorate the room so that couples can enjoy their first night together as husband & wife in an ambiance of romance, beauty and bliss. I also decorate for anniversaries, proposals, and any special occasion. For more information please visit: The Suite

All in all, my hope has been deferred, but a dream was also born. Isn’t life like that sometimes? A mixture of the bitter and the sweet? For now, my heart is a little sick, but I can honestly say that I am so appreciative for the “spoonful of sugar that helps the medicine go down”. (Thank you Mary Poppins- Smile). Pray for me as I pray for you…

5 comments on “Hope Deferred & a Dream Born…

  1. Karisa
    September 17, 2012

    Oh my! I read the first few lines in shock. As I read on, I wish I were there to embrace you. Praise the Lord for His comfort and your faith. Trusting the Lord will provide our daily bread is precisely the lesson I am entering into. Thank you for sharing your testimony. Hearing of how you are holding on to Christ is encouraging.

    The Suite – bomb! This is a perfect fit. Your Lift Specialist sure hit the nail on the head.


  2. Charese
    September 17, 2012

    This was AMAZING! The Suite is going to be WONDERFUL! So proud of you!


  3. CamishaMV
    September 17, 2012

    You made a Thug Misses cry……Hope deferred. This is an on time blog. Thank you Toiah. Thank you for being you. Much success to you. Love ya.


  4. Freya
    September 24, 2012

    love it. believing in god’s promises is the best route. praying for you!! xoxo


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